Dead To Me

I wrote this about a good friend after we lost touch. Since then, we've reconnected, and I am happy to know things are going well.

Every now and then I think I'll call up your mother
Ask her where you went and how you've been
But it's not my move
It's not my turn
It's not my place for all I know
For all I know
You are strung out in the gutter
You are starving on the street
You are slitting your wrists
You are dead to me
You are dead to me
You are gone

I thought I could protect you
And I gave you what I had
But you needed too much
And I broke
I couldn't save you
I couldn't help you
I couldn't love you enough for all I know
For all I know
You are rolling in money
You have met someone nice
You have made it
You are dead to me
You are dead to me
You are gone

I am deaf with my listening
I am blind with my watching for a sign
I am numb with my waiting for an echo
And the only voice, the only cry, the only heartbeat is mine

I wonder what you think
If I ever come to mind
If I betrayed you
If you let me down
You never tell me
You never told me
You never will for all I know
For all I know
You are living in the city
You are dead in a car crash
You are fine
You are dead to me
You are dead to me
You are gone